smells like teen spirit

"wanting to be someone else is a waste of the person you are."

..........the late great kurt cobain

it actually smells like friday. fridaze are bittersweet to me. i work late friday night and early on saturday morning; & u know there's always something happening on friday/saturday nights. the span of time from friday all the way through to sunday is always a blur cuz it feels nonstop. i can hack though. im havin high stress levels right now about calling for time off. like who am i to call for vacay time. i barely started at work even though i aint the newbie anymore (or newb) as my friend martyn says. watever, grown up problems arent fun, they blow. im still lovin life despite all the bullshit. but im really feelin kcobain's insight. some powerful shit. google his quotes he has some dope ones, this one just caught my eye. you cant really add onto it, he says it all....
for now, ima take it EZ. hope you guys do too.

latelee....

....i've been on the grind. ooh yaaa. on the surface, i'll probly bitch a little bit about the stresses of working for the man. BUT deep deep down on the inside i kinda love it. did i say that? yessir i did. i'll only probly admit this on my blog tho. but needless to say im just grateful and blessed. there's probly no better feeling right now than feeling useFULL. uselessness is big deep black fucking depressing hole, one i hope to GOD i will never meet again. with all this empowering shit said, i have been on the grind tho. when people ask the infamous small talk question: "what have you been up to?" or my other fave i always abuse: "what's new?" my most honest reply these days is: work. work. work. i love sayin that tho. ima a career woman now, suckasssss. but ya, i've been out and about, ya know enjoyin my 20s and i have much to blog about. i've missed you blog. i know i havent been faithful but bear with me, i have lots of shtuff to share.


oh happy st. patricks day. the green beer will take a back seat to work. but i'll try to catch up if i can.