cookie's fortune

or in murs' words: if you wait too long, the milk goes sour

as far as bullshit fortunes go, this is probably one of the deepest one's i've read. the most memorable one was: "You will eat yummy Chinese food today." oh no shit. hahaha. but aniwais, the meaning behind this one speaks volumes to me. since im currently in a state of "i dont know what the hell im doin," the "what if" game or "shoulda, coulda, woulda" tricks could really start to take that toll. i almost fell into those traps. and maybe i did for a lil bit. but i know better now. i guess the time for re-evaluation & reflection are taking place. failure is my motivator. i've started to think about things i havent in a long while & revisit the ideas that i've been putting off because i wanted to focus. ya know? i'll just say that this is all a blessing in disguise to make myself feel better. btw, why do these said blessings always have to be "in disguise?" its like helllllo blessing come & get me, you dont have to hide. but i guess, its sweetest when you dont expect stuff. which i totally believe in. probably the best things in my life happened to me when i didnt expect them. so i guess there's a point. ok im rambling & not making sense. BUT ya, im taking this fortune straight to the heart. im gonna start to DO & put myself first. because i tend to accomodate & self-sacrifice cuz im nice like dat. but i gotta look out for numba 1. & know that if it aint gonna happen, i have to make it happen. btw, the other day i thought i saw someone who could've been someone i know but of course, w/my luck i only saw this person's back. it was just so weird cuz it was a crowded space & of course im drawn to this person's back. weird?? yes. but i dunno, its like everyone could look the same from the back but i just had a strange feeling. but oh well that moment's passed, it was just freaky. the best part is that person will never ever know....hahahaha. i sound like a stalker now. but you guys know i aint. oook i gotta go DO stuff, but ya read the fortune & interpret it however you want. for me it served as a big motivation because its so true. i hope it does the same for you.