complex

could not go to sleep last night, again. i need my sleep to focus. but that aint happening. my body refuses to sleep early which is anytime before 2AM. last night was an exception tho. i was being a good lil girl tryin my best to catch my zzzz's but the biggest misunderstanding of my life happened which is too ridiculous to even share. my point is that i was wide awake again. i decided to go online to put me to sleep and found this:


LONDON BRIDGE
Money can’t buy meaning. LAUREN LONDON, the certified dime from ATL and Entourage, reveals herself through her most prized possessions to Complex columnist TRAVIS BARKER. Priceless.


A word from Travis Barker: “I first saw Lauren in ATL and was struck by her acting and beauty. When we met, I found her super-humble, and sweet, too, which is rare in Hollywood.”


1. BIBLE“I carry a small Bible with me everywhere I go. When I go to the club I have to find a purse that it fits in. If I’m filming, I read the Bible before I get on set so I can get centered. I feel incomplete if I don’t have a Bible with me.”
2. TAPE OF PROPHECY“Last year, everyone was talking about this guy Louis who prophesizes through the spirit and prays over you. I think some people are blessed with the gift of sight, and you’ll know the real from the fake. I met him and he prophesized over my year. If I get down, I play the tape. That day definitely changed my life.”
3. UGG BOOTS“An artist by the name of Jonah was inspired and asked me, ’Can I see your UGGs? Do you mind if I write on them?’ I didn’t care. They were dirty. He did the first one and I was like, ’Oh yeah! Holla at this other one right now!’ My nickname is Boogie, so he wrote ’Boogie’ on the side. He did these in five minutes, and I wore them in ATL.”
4. FUNNY GIRL“I am obsessed with Barbra Streisand. She’s the underdog. As a kid, I felt my chances [of acting] were long; my mother was a single parent in an abusive relationship and knew nothing about Hollywood. But [Barbra] overcame her obstacles, so I knew I could overcome mine.”
5. NO-NAME JEANS“I got these before I could afford name brands. My friends and I shared them; they made our booties look big before we had shapes. This boy in high school asked me what they were and I felt embarrassed, so I made up the brand ’Unique Boutiques.” He acted like he knew it.”
6. GODDAUGHTER’S SONOGRAM“My best friend is pregnant with her first baby. We went to do a 4D sonogram. I cried at the heartbeat, and it’s not even my child. I’m really connected. Just in case I never have kids, I’ll always have hers.”
7. BABY PICTURE WITH PARENTS“This is the only picture I have of my parents together and me. I look like I don“t belong to either one of them. People used to think I was adopted, then I got older and started looking black”
8. ANKLET“When I was 15, a friend surprised me by stealing these $25 anklets we couldn’t afford from the mall. She put hers on and the next day it made her ankle green. My ankle was fine, so I figured it must be karma. I wore it until I was like 22. This anklet went through my first kiss, which led to...other things.”

but i'll do you one betta:

lauren london @ complex : part1, part2, part3

you're welcome. love her & i kno you love her too. this is what insomnia leads me to.

me, myself & eye

today was such a lazy day. loved it. just watched the latest episode of entourage. i love that show if you couldnt tell. they have the best music credits, fo reals. whoever is pickin out the songs is a genius, theyre not too pretentious or annoyingly mainstream, they just perfectly set the mood.

weekend was funnnnn. surprise party, costume parties, and a late night coffee run. fuckin distractionssssss. love em and hate em. im happy tho becuz jacko finally gave me my gangsta rap cd which went perfectly well w/my halloween costume. hahahaha. i need to buckle down. distractions are consuming my life. some good, some bad and some new... im just gonna go w/the flow but since i've been playing hard, i need to work even harder. gotta keep my eye on the prize.... speaking of eyez....

a week ago my eye dr. gave me the thumbs up to resume wearing contacts again. yessssss!!! (like how dj fr full house would pump her arm and say "yesss!"). BUT the strict stipulations were to not wear them for more than 8 hrs and to absolutely under no circumstance wear them overnight, or else i would have to revisit the horror of entertaining a glass eye. but i was like oh hell yaaaaa, finally. i almost forgot how i looked like w/o glasses. yet being all happy and shit to finally wear contacts i fuckin forgot to take them out before i slept. not just once but TWICE. and of course my eye is irritated now. "oops, my bad." shit, i guess my lesson was not learned. but its so easy to leave them in. gotta be more careful. i promise. i dont wanna glass eye.

its just me, myself and eye. i know everyone is in love w/b's new song but i'll take it back to 03-04ish when this song was bomb. looooove this song and love her in this video.

21

anotha day, anotha dolla...and anotha bday. today marks the long-awaited milestone everyone legally waits for. yes, my lil big bro, daryll has FINALLY turned 21. now u can legally purchase alcohol, get into those 21+ clubs, hit the bars and most importantly legally go buckwild in vegASS -booze and gambling- the whole nine. but, im happy this date finally came, took long enough. since D is a seasoned vet in drinking it wont be no biggie for him to get all shitfaced tonight but i kno his homies are gonna try their hardest to get him totally fucked up as a good homie should. you only turn 21 once...but for D, he's gonna have a month long celebration to commemorate this bitch. here's to your 21st. its grown man's business now.

didn't kno we had america's next top model up in here. haha. nothing but love. live it up, as i kno u always will.

[moonlight rollaaawaaaayyyy]

[happy barfday]

adriannnnnnnn!!!!

happy birthday, mr. adriano basa!! the big 2-3. you's all growns up now. its all the same after 21 tho. am i right? ARRA (adrian-rose, rose-adrian) & CMMC (christal-mark, mark-christal) [those are only 4 people] roadtripped it to sin city in celebration of big man basa's birfffday. obligations and other complications lead me to decline the very tempting offer, which wasnt easy. but to make it up, i said the pool house could be available. [guess ya kno what that means...] but fun will be had, drinks will be drunk, cash monay will be gambled. happy bday holmes. anotha year under your belt and more to come.

these were from the last vegASS trip in august at spice market buffet. waffles were bomb. luv these pix, too funny. happy 23rd.

surprise partayyyyyyy

study yo ass off...

...is one of the motivational sayings i have put up in my room as well as conveniently posted on my desktop background. my other little notes say, "BE CONFIDENT. BE POSITIVE. DONT GIVE UP. I WILL BE SUCCESSFUL." i didnt want to get all tony robbins and shit but you gotta do what you gotta do. the power of positivity seems to be just some subliminal psychobabble shit that new age people are into. but with the stressful reality of my test, i think this heightened level of optimism will be my redemption. and believe me it aint easy to be positive, confident, or stay focused. its mind over matter. and this test is getting the best of me. i feel like i've been paralyzed for the longest time. like i perpetually have a chip on my shoulder. i hate feeling uneasy and this is something i've had to deal with for months now. the bullshit of this test is annoying. 4 years of labor intensive nursing school to have everything amount to in one test??? wtf. who made up those rules? who's to say that this one test accurately measures my competency as a nurse??? i dont think so. sucks balls man. i prefer to be extremely private about the details of my test. im just like that. "i'll never telllll" i've noticed however, that no one's been bugging me bout it. which either means that everyone has ASS-u-me-d i've taken it and failed and have not asked me out of politeness or people have gotten the picture and realized i will only spill the beans until i have passed. but whatever. dont pity me, i hate that shit. they can think whatever they want. but, uh, back to the lecture at hand... "perfection is perfected, so i'm 'a let 'em understand"

this is the longest blog of my life. venting has stopped. im here to say that im being positive much to my dismay. a positive anything is better than a negative nothing. im not taking the easy way out and feeling sorry for myself. but im gonna be strong. i have the heart for it and im gonna kick this test in the ass. and WHEN I PASS, i will let you kno when the party is as promised. remember there will be a party. oh yes, there will be a party. im feeling good vibes. its fuckin on. aniwais, on one of my study dates at barnes and noble in the americana i looked out the window and saw this:

sets the mood. although, i always feel like im in pleasantville everytime i go to the americana.

barbershop

this is not a dream, you're not seeing things. but daryll finally decided to shave off his 2 month old labor of love. yes folks, he shaved his head. BUT in true d style he wanted to make this cut memorable and got all excited n shit where his finished product was a mohawk-esque do. hahaha. sounds fun huh? i assisted in smoothing out hairlines but i wont take any credit. by weeks end he said he's gonna go sans mohawk for a formal event. so dont get all used to this style. oh and coincidently the movie, Barbershop, was on. what are the odds??

BEFORE

AFTER





GIVE 'N' GO!!!!!!!!!!!! hahahahaha. too much fun, especially for carol.

big k

HAPPY FUCKIN BDAY!!! finally 21, finally. its kevin's 21st today. we all celebrated at midnight with shots, cupcakes and good times. me, carol and daryll slaved over the cupcakes and cheryl provided the booze. aren't we good cousins? i kno, the best. aniwais, happy bday cuz 19 more shots to go...

kevins21st & guppy's

get well soon

ok so instead of being studious, i decide to space for a while and this pix and headline caught my eye: Travis Barker Posts Hospital Pics. You all know the tragic occurrences preceeding this right? it was all over. If you were living under a rock, Barker, DJ AM and 4 other passengers were involved in a fiery plane crash. Barker & AM were the only survivors sustaining critical injuries, 2nd and 3rd degree burns. He just simply says thank you to everyone for all their love and support after the accident.


"I want to give my deepest thanks to everyone who has helped deal with the current situation. First and foremost, Chris and Che were my friends. I would give up anything to have them here with us today, healthy and happy. To call them my employees does them such a disservice, as they were so much more than that. Chris was my best friend before anything else, and I can never put into words how much he will be missed. Che was an amazing person as well, and I was honored to have him in my life.
I am simply amazed and will be forever grateful for all the support everyone has shown to Chris and Che's families. Its a testament to how many lives they touched in a positive way."


"Like the doctors said from the beginning, its been a slow recovery process. I am coming up on the 7th of my surgeries Monday. Today I finally was able to move all my fingers on my right hand. Every step seems huge at this point, and Im doing EVERYTHING I can possibly do to get back to my kids. Yes, I did start eating meat again, but if it helps me to be home holding my little humans sooner, then its all worth it."





sad huh? i thought so. i have no idea how the hell i would cope with all the madness. but life is too fuckin short. no regrets before its too late. whatever doesnt kill you, makes you stronger. keep ya head up trav, landon and alabama need their daddy.

a rapper's delight

"SOMETHING, SOMETHING, SOMETHING...stack that cheeeese." even though hip-hop has has not directly saved my life per se, or maybe it has? hip hop has been the salvation/healer to many beautiful people from every walk of life. the other day i was watching the tube, not YouTube but real tv, and came across this, "100 GREATEST HIP HOP SONGS." and i was like ok coo i'll see what this is about. i thought i was watchin BET for a quick second but i was fuckin surprised to find out it was vh1. wtf? vh1 made a show bout the greatest hip hop songs?? hahaha. aniwais, Hip Hop Press said:
VH1 is paying tribute to rap royalty by counting down the "100 Greatest Hip Hop Songs." This five-part compilation of beats, rhymes and lyrics is not just a countdown - it is an ultimate celebration of the greatest hip hop music - old school classics, gangsta rap and everything in between.

COMPLETE 100 LIST

this countdown was not only a tribute to all those BAD ASS mc's but it kinda made me reminisce. it will take you back down memory lane. trust. "...a nostalgic look at a time when high-top fades and shades paired with big gold chains and braids were still fresh; a time when throwing your hands in the air got the party started and it was cool to admit that you were down with 'O.P.P....'" hahaha, i liked that.

i havent watched the whole series but i've been tryna catch up through youtube. but the good news is that it will on all day this sunday on vh1 if you interested. , after checking out the list, i dont particularly agree w/some of the rankings but i'll start you off with the first part, the last shall be first. which includes one of faves from back in the day, "REGULATORSSSSS," shoulda easily broke the top 10.

one more day in the valley

i only wish my day was half as fun as this. easily one of my most favorite ENTOURAGE episodes. it has sooooo many genius moments, Drama freakin out about going to the valley in 100degree heat, the opening weekend of Aquaman, Vince celebrating by buying the boys Ducatis, and ending up at a high school party with the brilliant homage to Almost Famous. you have to watch the whole episode so ya kno what im talkin bout. and if ya already have, do yourself a favor and watch it again. i promise it will deliver.

if only vince had said, "i am a golden god...." would've been perfect.

watch watch watch: one day in the valley

craig, my man

today my friend craig pulled through BIG time. as you all know, through the genius technological wave of craig's list you can have anything you could possibly buy at your fingertips. fo reals. im pretty sure that all of you have dabbled in or even made transactions through this list. aniwais, for the past year i have been in dire need of a new phone. i dont wanna bore you w/my pitiful phone history, but here is a pix of the embarrassing-zack morris-big-ass-brick-sorry-ass excuse for a phone, the relic i USED to use.

NOKIA 6010

crappy, i know, i know. but it did the job. luckily, my sis, cheryl was generous to offer a new phone for my bday present, mind you the conditions included that it had to be from craig's list which means used, w/SIM cuz i have t-mobile and the limit was $100. not bad, could've been worse, but something i could work with. it kinda gets tedious trying to weed out the good ads from the stupid ones. but i was able to find something that met all the specifications. i inquired about an ad, she responded quickly and thanx to craig (if craig even exists) and his list, within 48hrs i was in possession of a new/used phone. i feel renewed. like not embarrassed to bust out with my phone in public now. not that i was, but shiiiiit everytime i would take out my phone i would get this comment without fail, "whoa! wow, this was like my very first cell phone back in high school" hahaha. i probly would have said that too. it feels goooood to have a color screen on my phone, a camera, a speaker. as if i was from the stone age. but yes, i enjoy the finer things. here take a looksie:

SAMSUNG t629

Super slim and sophisticated. Slide the Samsung t629 to reveal an impressive array of features. 1.3 mega-pixel camera, high resolution screen, MP3 player, Bluetooth connectivity, and a quad band world phone in a stunning silver finish.

stunnnnnnning huh? i kno its not the newest cream of the crop phone like a blackberry curve or the most coveted iphone but its a VAST improvement, mos def. and im happy. all of you, well people who call me, also get something outta this. i can use the speaker now. so i can talk on the phone while driving. and not be a law breaker. yesssss.

i have a big shot out to my sis, che. since she was balla who financed this transaction. for that, THANK YOU much. luv ya, manang, even tho we still scrap like no other.

back in the day when i was young..............................................im not a kid anymore


(our hair do's are kinda the same, maybe we should recreate this disneyland pose?......hahaha.......i got nothing but love for ya, sis)

dressed to the nine's

friday night was...the highlight to end the week long celebration of iza's grad. CONGRATS btw. she keeps my hair silky smooooth.

things didnt turn out in everyone's favor due to some short guy who couldnt pull through. hahaha. but the gyrls and i, all dressed to the nine's, painted shit gold and ended up at la cantina. the free drinks and chips sufficed.

quote of the night: "oh helllllllllllllll no, they just did not let BANGKOK in!!!" - j.

pix for daysssss

so, pack light

i cant sleep. i dont kno why. im wide awake right now. maybe bc i napped during the day. or maybe bc the usuals just left after the mini sesh. maybe i have stuff on my mind. or maybe bc im just an insomniac like that. time management hasnt been my friend lately. but then again we've never been close. im best friends with procrastination tho. we tight.

aniwais, do you have that one song that puts you in a good mood where you're just in your element? where you kno every word, background echo and every little note, even those lil high pitch ones? i kno you do. and probly not just one too. i probly have like a top 5 list. well this is that song for me. love love love this song. i can play out this song like no other.



ok i feel a yawn coming, good night.