m.issing i.n a.ction
ok so im baaaaaack. kinda. i cant fully let loose til i know fo sho fo sho, but im confident. its like a confidence i've never felt before. i know right. determination mang. thats the name of the game. if you want something bad enough you gotsta do whatever it takes to get it. which is what i did: goin outta town, rooming w/strangers, flyin by myself, basically being totally & utterly focused you know the whole nine. i've been mia for a good month now. & i was gettin used to it. i gotta lil taste of the fun life this weekend. it was so weird to be out again. it felt soooooo GOOD. cuz you dont even understand, i totally shut myself from the world to focus. which was not easy to do but it felt right somehow. being totally detached from everything really forces you to get shit done. i'll be a lil honest tho, i had a mini breakdown right in the middle of it. i was kinda in tears for a bit cuz everything just felt so intense. i regrouped & got it together though. but this void will be filled soon & i promise not just w/alcohol. moderation will be practiced especially since a special day is comin up ;) in the meantime, im so anxious but im tryna be cool. patience baby. good things come to those who wait. i missed you world. hoped you missed me too.
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