BE

i've been so out of it. i feel like shit because the cold that has infiltrated this house has finally got me. its not cute; breathing outta your mouth cuz your nose is so clogged making your lips all chapped (i really hate that). but despite my trivial complaints i had a really good weekend =) like those weekends where you have no expectations whatsoever but end up having "the best fucking times of my entire fucking life" type thing. its like we all never skipped a beat.... so grateful to say the least. i've also been tryin to take life into my own hands and make things happen instead of complaining & waiting, i moved into the loft & im soooooo happy. the one thing i will truly take from this whole situation is that you should never take anything for granted; whether it be people or living space. its the truth. u really dont know what u got til its gone.

ANIWAIS, i havent blogged in a long ass time....i miss you blog. i'll be showin you some more love soon. i cant believe its novemba already. time fucking flies....somehow i thought about my life a year ago. things were different thats fo sho. sorry i couldnt help but. more about that later. but my medication is starting to kick in, ima go knock out now. but yay cuz i get to spend quality time w/my goddaughter lil k & another interview tomorrow....i will get this job. goodnight.

no fuck ups

anotha day, anotha interview.....
this recession is killing me larry! give a sista a break. i've been on a good couple of interviews & i must say im getting progressively better. sharp PROfessional attire; CHECK. strong handshake & eye contact; CHECK. kiss-ass attitude; CHECK. no one is biting. i almost questioned if i was doing something wrong...but i soon figured out the one thing i lack is EXPERIENCE. give me a chance & i'll give you experience. gotta keep my head up & hope i dont fuck this up. in the meantime, i'll dream of how life would be once i get that job.

i get by wit a lil help from my friendsssss

VIRGO DAILY HOROSCOPE FOR OCTOBER 18, 2009:

It's the differences between you and your friends -- not the similarities -- that keep you all close, believe it or not. So embrace and respect the fact that they don't always agree with you! Sure, you may not believe those who hold different views, but you should always believe in your friends! Harmony doesn't happen when all notes are the same; it happens when different notes come together and create a beautiful sound. Love the music you and your friends make.

worddddd. i luv my friends. they are theeee best. =)

haste makes waste

sundaze are still fun daze. on the biggggest side note kids: REJECTION blows but what matters most is how you deal with it. i gotta feeling something GREATER will come my way. i know it will.

"nothing good comes easily, sometimes you've got to fight...."

mister feeeeeeeenster

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.
too funny. i loved this show. i even went to a tv taping. this was good huh? i had to show u guys.

saturday, WAIT

ok so im not doin great @ updating. baaaad cindy. i'll try my bestest to keep up. i have to be a responsible adult & tend to grown up biznass thats why. but things have been goin good so far. in fact, i feel real real goood. not to the point where its nauseating good. but im really tryin to stay on that positive tip & let things happen. which is big for me right now. routinely, i would always think twice, second guess & then just settle. which was secretly miserable. but i decided i dont wanna be the reason i feel like crap so i did wat most grown ups do & sucked it up & just let go. let it all go. well most it anyways. .......in saying all this motivational stuff, i had a dope-ass weekend. ya DOPE-ASS. haha. lets see i discovered that hollywood is only a walk (a loooong walk away), a pitcher & smokes always does the trick, thirft store shopping is always fun but halloween thirft store shopping is a mission, mamamamamitas is BOMB, & HIP HOP kareoke is the new thang. it doesnt matter how ghetto a place may seem good company ALWAYS cancels that out. but i had a really good weekend w/my girls.

ok so hip hop kareoke is exactly what you're thinking when i first mentioned HIP HOP kareoke. it was tight!!! all u hiphop heads, if you are looking for a good/chill time then sharpen those MC skills cuz u gotsta bring it if you choose to hit the stage. no joke some nerdy looking lil white dude was all up on a WU-TANG joint & killed it. soooooooo if that doesnt make u come out then i dunno wat will. hahahahahahahaha. just to warn it's kinda in the ghetto meaning its really in the heart of the HIGHLAND park ghetto. good joints & jams, i promise you'll have a good time or at least be entertained. the quote of the night: "im not gonna FLOW or anything," colin. hahaha. they should really give me a cut since im sooooo pluggin this shit. its the every 2nd saturday of each month & i think theyre tryin to change the venue to somewhere? here's the link since im so nice: therhymealong.com

QUOTEWORTHY:
"Be who you are & say what you feel,
because those who mind don't matter &
for those who matter dont mind." Dr. Seuss

all of thee above

wish me luck.

do you speaka any english?

monday mornings are killers. 5am wake up calls physically hurt. ya u read that right, 5AM! i know! it hurts that much more because i dont have the whole get up early & being all chipper enjoying the morning kind of mentality. i cherish my nights. BUT i have my obligations to uphold. so instead of complaining i've turned this unpleasant thing into a very productive outlet and decided to execute my workout regimens in the mornings as well. genius, i know. im tryin to get better @ time management. aniwais, before i rambled, my point is that i've noticed i've been neglecting my blog. no bueno. so now its time for some tlc. some informative/funny shit to detract from all the deep thoughts lately. i cant help it though.

ps. i'll give credit where its due. roldy found this for me, so all props to her. oh & roldy = caROL. haha.

learn sumthin new everyday.

doesnt this remind you of RUSH HOUR, when chris tucker is being an asshole to jackie chan & says: "DO-YOU-UNDERSTAND-THE-WORDS-THAT-ARE-COMING-OUT-OF-MY-MOUTH?"

oh & im tryna stay on that positivo tip so ima try to leave a quote here & there. u know some words to live by:

"just manage your life & challenge it..." -blu

there is always hope

im sittin next to my windowsill. on my side of the bed. its cold. the night sounds peaceful & i love it.

i've been getting a funny feeling lately. not exactly a cute one but a weird one? i cant put my finger on what it is but my gut is telling me that life & all of its idiosyncrasies are unfolding. all these things i've only imagined before are actually starting to manifest & i need to take it all in wholeheartedly. its scary and exciting. i dont wanna fuck it up so im scared. its a waiting game of hits and misses. but the greater the risk the greater the reward. i still cant explain this weird funny feeling tho. its indescribable. but for now i'll stay grateful. for everything. the good & the bad. because i heard em say, people in your life are seasons and everything that happens is for a reason. i truly believe timing is everythang...

in the meantime, banksy says there is always HOPE.

jacked

simply put but harder to follow. i think #10 is a must.

here we are again. 2:50 am. my blog is my only constant @ this time of nite/morning (whichever you prefer). i seem to have a battle with falling asleep these past nights and insomnia is kickin my ass. i cant articulate right now. i have all these things i want to say but i dont want to complain anymore. i hate how i feel when i do. its so unattractive and unpleasant. so instead i will formulate my own list of life lessons:

CINDY'S LIFE LESSONS
1. Treat others the way you want to be treated; the GOLDEN rule always reigns supreme.
2. Don't talk shit; more importantly dont get caught.
3. Get used to getting used. (totally jacked from kanye but sooo true. if you're not useful you're USELESS.)
4. Have consideration for other people; rude people are so fuckin annoying.
5. Believe in yourself; confidence is key.
6. Let it go. let the bad shit go. "bag lady you goin hurt your back, draggin all those bags like that."
7. Mean what you say; real talk is powerful. words hurt more than sticks & stones.
8. Aim high. ambition is sooooooo attractive.
9. Love is inevitable. (ok i stole that one from that chick from the movie Paper Heart. i have yet to experience IT but im a believer).
10. Dont let opportunities pass you by; CARPE DIEM.
11. Try new things; the same routine gets stale.
12. Love wholeheartedly. the half-assed shit gets you no where.
13. Take a chance. you never know.
14. Have no regrets. regrets are killers.
15. Sing out loud. esp @ kareoke bars.
16. Rock your lashes. eyelashes that is. real or fake.
17. Fall 7 times get up 8. shit happens dust yourself off and try again.
18. Be happy. Do what makes you happy. Depression is exhausting.
19. Live in the moment. dont mess it up w/worrying about the past or future. "the present is a gift and i just wanna be."
20. Learn from your mistakes. Dont make the same mistake twice or thrice. "fool me once shame on you, fool me twice shame on me."
21. Practice humility. Humble pie is not the best flavor but is the best teacher.
22. Give more than you take. Generosity is contagious; shiestyness is ugly.
23. Surround yourself with positivity. positive people, positive thoughts, positive environment. good vibes = good times.
24. Always laugh out loud.
25. Take pictures. lots and lots of pictures.

kinda got carried away. i could keep going if i wanted to. but 25 for all the years i've been alive =)

summer vs autumn

FINALLY!!!

i thought i was the only person who didnt watch this movie. i was thisclose to watchin it by myself (ya thats how much i've been wanting to watch this). but easily one of my favorite movies this year. i already own the dvd, i just have to buy it when it comes out.


"next time you look back, i think you should look again..."

state of mind

screw that kanye/taylor swift drama, this shoulda been the highlight of the night. although lil mama was drinking some crazy shit & crashed the party at the end. crazy bitch this aint america's best dance crew! BUT jigga man you did it again. on point as always & kept it real. you made me have an empire state of mind;

"concrete jungle where dreams are made of...
those lights will inspire you...."

Jay-Z - New Music - More Music Videos

virgo sistah

carley my love,


happy happy birthday. happy 25th!!
girl, there are not enough words to say how much i miss you. but i wanted to let you know that absence definitely makes the heart grow fonder. not that i dont love you enough. i just wanted to wish you the bestest bestest in life cuz i know you deserve it girl. i still look back @ all of this & cant believe it but i really believe that things happen for inexplicable reasons. one day when we're old & gray we'll laugh about this. hahaha. sometimes i think that youre a phone call away & we could meet up @ the americana ;) but believe me when i say that canada is soooo lucky right now :) mark my words i will make it up there by the end of the year or sometime in winter. i promise. pinky swear. but aniwais, i hope you enjoy your day girl. miss our goodtimes, our talks, our dinners, & of course most of all you. im here if you need anything cuz i know you always got my back. love & miss ya more than you'll ever know my virgo sistah. can u believe we're 25 now? haha. oh how time fliesssss ;)

carla, ms bacon if yur nastyyyyyy

happy bday bacon!!!!
i know this pix is an oldie but a goodie. i kno i look a fool but its a cute candid of you =)
i got cha anytime girl.
i always associated september 1st w/the 1st day of school & always dreaded it, but now its a cause for celebratin your life girl. i kno that sounded soooo corny but i mean it yo. hope you have a great one cuz i know the bday love came early this year & will keep on comin :) luv ya.

let the good times rolllllll

my tipsy ass. nuff said.

celebrations have commenced. i did the disneyland bday thang, got piss ass drunk all while in denial of my bad case of bronchitis. helllllooooo nurse! im such a badass. all the drinkin & smokin just exacerbated my symptoms. my chest hurts from all the coughin but its was all worth it. as dan tells me, "let the good things happen to you." & that i will. im just gonna keep ridin this wave & lettin the good times rolllllllllllllllllllllllll.