kiss kiss

K.I.S.S. duh. so my studyin grind has been mediocre. i know, my bad. BUT im at my secret spot right now so im good, im gone. although it dont feel like a secret no mo because its gettin crowded up in here. damn... aniwais, i have a goal which can be summed up into one word = AUGUST. yesss it will all happen in agosto. it is the month of mi celebracion. my birfday, my passing, begas? maybe baby. so yah somethang to look forward to. lately distraction has been taken over my mind. why do i do this to myself? oh wait, because thats waaaay funner than studying. BUT two older & wiser folks were giving me those "dont give up, if you put your mind to something, anything is possible, perservere & focus" speeches & both of these said elders used this expression: KEEP IT SIMPLE STUPID = K.I.S.S. crazy huh. of course only people over the age of 65 would know expressions like this. so i am grateful to you & you. it makes sense. i always get frustrated & am really hard on myself when i dont know the answer to a question. but i need to remember to step back & keep it simple stupid. its overwhelming, trust. i have all this nursing information stored somewhere in my brain & i have to critically search my brain when any random nursing topic is asked in a question. ya i know sucks to be me. by the time i take this test for the 100th time, i hope to eat, sleep, breathe, shit all thangs nursing. YUM. oh & i cant wait to pass & stop blogging about this. so i could talk bout way funner & cooler thangs. good day. i miss cocoa.

puppy luv

so i got a pix txt from my sis last nite & was surprised to see this lil cutie.

meet COCOA CHANEL :) she's soooooooooooooooooooooooooooo cute.
I KNOW!!!! i was like oh em gee!!! we have a new puppy. during my childhood years you could say i kinda had an aversion to dogs. largely in part because my mama hated dogs. she pretty much was and still is scared shitless everytime a dog is w/in a mile distance around her. like she flips out and hides behind you when the damn dog aint no where near her. i know. my dad always laughs at her instead of helping her. HA. but maybe you could say that fear kinda poured out onto me as a dumb naive kid. BUT...now that im grown, i've been wanting my own dog. but since 1. my mama forbids any canine to reside in this household (& she's fucking serious bout that shit, once i mentioned to her about getting a dog & she tripped out gettin all mad and shit. trust me she will never get on that "i love dogs, their the cutest things alive" bandwagon) & 2. i have no means to financially support myself therefore a dog, im pretty much shit outta luck. all my girls have dogs which kinda makes me jealous. but that good jealous where you're happy for that person more than jealous but you just wish you had what they had just a lil bit. feel me? :) but ya, my sis & her bf got this dog all of a sudden thru the kindness of a neighbor. so that technically means that i adopted this dog too. haha. see how that works? im so excited. she's so adorable & loves to cuddle. we aint sure yet what her breed is cuz both her parentals are mutts. but i dont care she's too cute. what a pleasant surprise on my blu monday.

ooooh baby

im hot just like an oven, & i need your lovinnnnnnn. ;)

hahahahaha. it was hot as a mutha today. kinda irritatingly HOTT. hello summatime & the livins EZ. livins ok tho. but i've been gettin all these signs this weekend. weirddd. its like ok i get it. but i have all these things i vanna blog bout but my wifi sucks ass. like it takes foreva & a day to load a damn page. lame but cant complain. aniwais, i'll be up on it. trust. ima actually hit the sack cuz im bein responsible & to wake up early for work. ya you read that right. i can smell summer @ nite. loves it. good summernite.

FAITH & HUMILITY.

completely miserable

in the mornings. i got this really mean cough, sore scratchy throat-phelm til you die type coughs. & of course it's always the worst in the mornings cuz all those secretions build up @ nite cuz you're sleeping. it's the worst feeling for me. i havent been sick in a really long time, probly a year or 2? but ya, i've been coughing up a lung these past mornings. as if im goin to die because i wanna it all out, like youre almost crying. it sucks. but despite my lil health situation, i feen for a stogey. baaaad bad cindy. i dont know. im not a pack a day smokers, but a casual smoke break would suffice. it just hits the spot sometimes. such a guilty pleasure. ok for me, it's like when youre stressed out or need sometime to collect your thoughts, you sneak outta the house & enjoy your stog & that moment of relaxation w/o anyone buggin you or up in your biznatch. or maybe cuz i've been kinda sad about things. it's on & off. BUT, my body is telling me something. & it's forcing me to listen. we'll see how i do. all this smoke talk makes me wanna go puff puff pass. cant stop, wont stop, should stop.

risky biznatch

i know you feelin that too. you know i roll deep.

snatchy

snatchin access from la biblioteca [like you even care] aniwais, its that time again for me where it just winds down. so down where you have to think about grown up things. i've been tryna put it off for so long. it's hard when you've been broken down. its ugly actually. kinda more frustrating when you don't have your own space. the ideal of temporary is slowly becoming something more long-term, dare i say permanent. but you gotta do what you gotta do. i didnt ask for all this, but i'll accept it. when i catch myself complain about the status quo, i get disgusted with myself because the truth is that things could be way worse. right? things just got to me the other day. but its all good now. ya know when you wanna conversate with someone you havent talked to in a long time? good like that. it was a late night coo.

btw dont you hate awkward glances. like when you just glance away from your eyeline & lock eyes with a stranger? & not in those romantic, "only happen in the movies" glances. but those awkward, "didnt mean to," weird-ass glances. like right now, i looked up & caught the weird dude from across the way. i hate when that happens but i couldnt help it. grrrreat.

time to DO SOMETHING.

withdrawals

from having no internet connection. fuckin shit. ya u read that right. im actually at a homegirl's pad tryin to snatch some internet action [hello belalabela!]. but ya, i feel so out of touch. blah fuckin blah. i woke up one morning expecting to do my daily internet routine & my dad comes & drops that bomb. (he was all smiles btw). hahahahahaha. but ya, i kinda got used to it. i just realized i rely on internet way too much. sad sad sad. carolism of this situation = "well, i guess we're gonna have to talk to each other now." it aint that bad. it's doable, i've done it before. i've been tryin to keep occupado with other things but i can't even tell what day it is anymore. but to keep all ya'll updated, celebrated jacko's grad, buzzin it, bbq's, laker games. last night, went to a party, had fun wit drinking games & could not sleep for the life of me, when i got home. im like running on empty, maybe 2 hours of sleep in the last 48 hours. i could knock out but not yet. on a lighter note, the unexpected struck again. i like it when life does that. it mixes up things. but the best part of the weekend was that the LAKERS kicked ass & took home the gold. LA all day everyday. laker love!!! parade is here! im sooooo going. in the meantime i need to.....concentrate, concentrate baby. party when i pass is all i gotta say. friendzzz call me cuz i gots no internet. & i dont even gots those kewl phones w/internet....hollllla.

just get back up when it knocks you down

now that just doesnt have to apply to love? right. i hope not. you ever get that feeling where you just feel like a chump? if so, i feel ya. i dont know why. it's just within my range of emotions. but dont worry this feeling gets trumped by my rational side where i realize, life is what you make it & that i should just shut up & dust my shoulders off & read these words. ya digggg?




ps. hol up...
i watched HANGOVER. that shit is fuckin funny. it'll make you carefree & laughing out loud for about 1hr & 36min. i already wanna watch it again. toodle-loo muthafuckasssss.

u + me = us

hahaha. member that song? w/that fake boy band that was actually real & they had that movie on mtv? no? yeah, me either. but since im tryin to get back into ze studyin grind hard core, i thought you might like this modern math. [besides i was always better in math for some reason. nerdy...i dont give a fuck, i need to embrace my strengths.]

new time, same hair

pretty much sums it up. conan is in el aye, taking over the tonight show. cant wait. i heart the cone zone. missed ya much, kill it tonight. watch it 11:30!!